I just wanted to cry..
Cry until there’s no more tears to shed. Cry until I get tired of crying.
Cry until I’ve got nothing to cry for.
I was browsing until I read a blog about a couple’s love story and how it began.. and it was nice, I mean it felt mushy at first but suddenly I feel pain crawling inside my heart.
An agonizing pain I can’t fathom where it came from.
It enveloped all over my heart and makes me want to cry.
How can someone be so proud? How can one keep his feelings and not express it and just let the moment pass him by without telling the woman he once dearly loved about it?
Oh God! Why is this happening?
All along, I was thinking he’d fight for me, for this love. But I was wrong?
How can one let his pride stand high on top of his head?
If only he’ll just tell me.
If only he knows how much I longed for him, missing him..
If only he’d stop pretending he’s okay with things..
If only he’d know how much I’ve been wishing he’d just humble down for once and let this love fix every thing.
I have laid all my cards and gave him hints, but he.. he kept on pushing me away.
And if only he’s here and not so far away, I’d let him know.. I’ll grab him and hug him and kiss his pains away.
But even if he was with me, he still pushed me away..
I never thought this love will end.. I hope this isn’t the end. I hope this is just the start.
And more, I pray this pain will subside albeit I am not sure for how long.
I still believe in things and still hanging on a hope, but whatever God’s plan is, so be it.
I believe and still believe in LOVE and the power of it.
And whatever is meant to be, will always finds it’s way.