Top of the morning to y’all from Philippines!Howdy dowdy doo? Haven’t posted much yesterday aside from that of my post greeting Nanay on her birthday.
I didn’t have the notion to do so, besides was too busy most times of the day yesterday, and I mean literally MOST of the TIME! Nanay set a thanksgiving party, the Filipino type of “party”.. or our kind of party, as it was not the most fortunate or elite visitors that we had but those neighbours who were less fortunate and who don’t have much to eat.
Nanay had two roasted pigs aka LECHON; one big and a wee one, and some other kind of dishes for the whole lot. There were heaps of people and it was actually nice serving them, we’ve been doing these most of the time, even if there’s no occasion, Nanay likes to share to people and it’s also a great thing and a great feeling to see smiles on their faces and a happy tummy, too.
Things and commotion subdued until 11:00pm.. but haven’t slept right away as I was awake til midnight.. my whole system’s down.. literally DOWN.
Happy for the outcome yet I wasn’t happy on myself so to speak.
I have been optimistic as much as possible all these days, except for those times when I really can’t handle pain, but yesterday.. just yesterday, it came to the point where I got exhausted.. not of dancing literally but going with the flow.. human nature flow that is.. or whatever that term is.
No matter how much I always remind myself of thinking positive and happy thoughts and good vibes, it all boils down to the point where I would also just let myself be drowned until the rock bottom. I am human, I am not a robot.. I get tired, I get fed up and exhausted, too. And thought I need a break! SO I DID! hahaha
I was not feeling the music as I was feeling pissed, unhappy and irritated with myself yesterday. Don’t get me wrong.. as much as I’d like to pinpoint it to particular people, I just throw it at my very own self.. though sometimes, I can’t dance with the music anymore. I have to let it out. And I did.
God taught me a lot of things from experiences and through people and it humbled me more and made me more understanding and patient unlike before. I have been more of the obedient one since but just so can’t be one yesterday. Allowed myself to feel it and be it so I can get over and be over it and I did.
Felt a lot better after emotionally and spiritually, but still feeling the exhaustion from yesterday’s activity. God has a great sense of humour and more often than not, I find it amusing yet challenging, too.
Ah! The joys of life! So so looking forward to bedtime already and wish it is soon enough! Wanted to cuddle up with my pillows and curl up on the bed and catch up on rest. It has been a long day yesterday, I need to rest. I also need my heart and my mind to rest. 🙂
Keen for the coming days. I cannot wait for that day actually, but still I need to have more patience and wait. @_@
Anyway, Thank you God for all of these, I may be exhausted but I am not stopping.. I will still dance, and go with the flow. Will always try to dance; move and sway the way You want me to for I know one day, this will be worth it. This is worth it. 🙂
God bless everyone! Hope y’all have a great middle of the week! 😀