04-08-2018

I’ve always kept my circle of friends small as possible. Ever since elementary days, I was never with a lot of kids for the same reason: I can’t trust anyone and most of these people will only be there when they want something. Having said that, it doesn’t mean I’ve always been like this. I opened up myself to people and invested in friendship and most often than not, I end up burning bridges. It’s always been the same, the same cycle, the same behavior, the same disappointment from different people. Now that I am older, it’s still the same and I kept on giving myself and people chances and still, nothing changes. I sometimes wonder if there’s something wrong with me or maybe I just pick the wrong people or maybe, my circle is meant to be small. I always, like always end up getting hurt expecting that these ‘friends’ I call are really my friends so I figured it is better to keep one good friend than have plenty. No expectations, no involvement, no disappointments and no pain from it. I know I’m not the only one who feels like this or experienced this, I hope you’re stronger than I am and I hope you’ll find your own circle. -sm

Introspection.

So after some time, like a long time actually, I am back on here and it feels weird, that kind of weird when you read the posts, it feels like I am reading someone else’s life story.

I do not intend on using this blog anymore but have been putting it off and been holding on this one hoping I’d change my mind later.

There’s a lot of things that happened between those times and I am grateful for all of those things. Looking back at those years where I was and who I am with, it feels different, like I am a completely different person and I wonder how I ended up there.

Anywho, I hope y’all are doing great and in good spirits. Have a blessed life everyone!

When You Marry

When I prayed for a husband, I asked God to send the person who loves me for who I am and I him. I didn’t ask for a lot of ‘standards’ but I was so sure of what I needed and prayed for it. It took a while before God answered that prayer but it was the perfect timing and it was God’s perfect will. When I decided to marry, it wasn’t because I was desperate and I needed to settle. I decided to marry because I love this man and he makes me happy and I want to spend lifetime with him. To women out there, marry someone not because you are desperate. If you want to end up with a great and loving person, be that person. You attract what you are. -SM

 

 

04-04-2018

Have you ever had that moment when you’ve been rehearsing a line or things you want to tell someone straight to the face over and over and waiting for the final “take”?
And when you’re at it, it felt surreal. – SM