04-08-2018

I’ve always kept my circle of friends small as possible. Ever since elementary days, I was never with a lot of kids for the same reason: I can’t trust anyone and most of these people will only be there when they want something. Having said that, it doesn’t mean I’ve always been like this. I opened up myself to people and invested in friendship and most often than not, I end up burning bridges. It’s always been the same, the same cycle, the same behavior, the same disappointment from different people. Now that I am older, it’s still the same and I kept on giving myself and people chances and still, nothing changes. I sometimes wonder if there’s something wrong with me or maybe I just pick the wrong people or maybe, my circle is meant to be small. I always, like always end up getting hurt expecting that these ‘friends’ I call are really my friends so I figured it is better to keep one good friend than have plenty. No expectations, no involvement, no disappointments and no pain from it. I know I’m not the only one who feels like this or experienced this, I hope you’re stronger than I am and I hope you’ll find your own circle. -sm