Pages 22-24 of 365: Weddings are Wonderful

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Here’s a quick glimpse of where I was today. I attended a wedding, well not as a guest though. This is truly a blessing and a great opportunity indeed! Thank you God!

On the contrary, the past few days have been great. There were quiet a few challenges but it’s all great. Still need a lot of improving but hopefully will get there.

Feeling exhausted already and will crash soon. Until the next time! Have a lovely weekend, you guys! Spread the love! ❤

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Pages 16-21 of 365: Hero

Baby needs some protection, but I am a kid like everyone else. So let me go, I don’t wanna be your hero. I don’t wanna be a big man. I just wanna fight like everyone else.

– Hero, Family of the Year

It’s been days since I have updated my book for this year. Feeling drained the past days, Nanay on the other hand needed some taking care coz she wasn’t feeling well, too. I was caught in doing work and looking after people and things that needs to be looked after. I missed a few days of writing the bits and bobs of things but will summarize them all at once. 🙂

There were too many thoughts I’ve always wanted to express but everytime I try to, I lost the moxie to do so. It’s like the wind, it comes and then it go as soon as I want to open my mind and heart. The excerpt from the song above just fits my whole feelings, it is so on point. I just wanna tell the universe or whoever I can tell that to.. To just let me go coz I am tired to be their hero. I feel tired fighting for life in a way, for people, for things all by myself. I don’t wanna always be the “big man” all the time, just like others, I am also a “baby” that needs protection and needs to rest. But unfortunately I have no one to protect me and to be in the “hero” position while I relax for a lil bit. I am not saying like there’s no God or no one really is out there.. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining here, or maybe I am but I think I have the right, I don’t get to complain all the time anyway. Hehe

Just as I thought I have someone, I get a big slap on my face that these “heroes” I thought and expected will walk with me and help me along the way don’t exist or only exist when they want to. I don’t know how to describe it but these people are only there when it’s convenient to them. Like they’ll only be there coz they need something and they want something from you. So I ended up being my own hero instead. Learning to be my own hero the hard way. It makes me wonder and reflect, too. I felt bad and get mad at these “false heroes” but in a way it made me ask myself the same question as to whether I have been a good hero to them or I am just being a hero coz I have to? Am I being a “false hero” myself, too?!

I don’t know if I make sense so yeah. From these experiences, it taught me to know where I stand in someone’s or in people’s lives. Coz if I know, and I stay where I am suppose to stay, there will never be a lot of expectations. Hence, less pain. Less expectations, less hurt. Saves me some energy. Hehe

On the contrary, I have been wondering and got too much questions in me head, too. From that time I decided to let go and move forward was the same time I started praying for the person whoever God meant for me. It’s odd, I know but it’s became a habit of mine to pray for him regardless of who that person is and where he is from. It’s like talking to him thru the wind, just that I never received any response yet coz I am not sure who he is and when he’s gon receive these messages. Haha

And having said that, I created a letter for “him” tonight.

Letter to the person God meant for me:

For the person God meant for me, whoever you are, I hope and pray, you’re strong enough to be your own hero and other people’s hero at the same time. That no matter how tumultuous life can get and how much exhausted you will be, you will still be that same hero God designed you to be. Just know, too that somewhere, in the Philippines, you my dear have a hero. I am adamant that you will be and will remain vehement and strong. I am keen to meet you.. In God’s perfect time and will. For now I will continue this journey by myself until we meet and be the hero for each other. Things are getting better on my end, I have learned not to rush into things and make use of the time while you’re not here. I have learned to never ever settle for less than what I deserve and up to this day, I always remind myself to do so. I have been self sufficient in so many ways, too. Doors and windows have been opened for opportunities and blessings I never thought will come, also, made friends with men and never expected much from them anymore and never see them men as “prospect” hoping “you’re it”. I have learned that it’s not like job hunting and neither a race and there’s a finish line or a deadline to meet. In time, we will get to meet. One day, we will be able to look after one another and be that hero and at the same time the baby both of us have to take care, pamper and look after. Yep, one day. One day, someday soon.

Until then, I will see you and meet you. 🙂

– Mikee

Alas! I already spilled more than enough.. Too much to say after days of hiatus hey? Haha

Until the next page peeps! I gotta crash and get some beauty sleep. (as if) haha

Hope y’all have a blessed day and a day full of love! Be inspired, be an inspiration, and be a hero. ❤

Page 15 of 365

So this is what I will be doing from now on, I will try my very best to post one blog/updates a day.. Hopefully will continue this in the long run haha

We had a lil get together for the feast of the Holy Child Jesus like we always do annually. It was fun, seeing people happy and feeding them. Lotsa smiles today!

There was a lil tension this morning but not something unmanageable. I am just happy and blessed and grateful for what I have, who I am today and where I am. It’s nice to get a compliment, too from someone I met who is also a blogger that lives in the same town with me(I assume.)

Growing more and more through time with God’s overflowing love and grace.

Thank you God for the blessings! Thank you Sto. Niño for the continued help and guidance!

To God be the glory!

Know where you stand in someone’s life and when you do, you’ll know what to expect and whatnot; and more, it won’t hurt as much.

– Mikee Cane

Everyday Realizations

I already started the first page of 365 like everyone else but forgot to take them all down.. This isn’t something I’d like to do but might as well do it.. Hmmm.. Sounds a great idea.
Here, I started the 14th page or maybe not.. I cannot recall. Hahaha

Anyway it’s been a long tiring day today but have been productive so to speak.

Ah! Life and it’s ironies, idiosyncrasies and whatnots.

At the end of the day what matters is how much love you share and to how many others you radiate light and kindness to.
That no matter how unhappy others are, you wake up and sleep happy and full of love despite the things you don’t have, you won’t have and you have.

I hope y’all sleep tonight with a smile in your face and appreciate God and the people around you today and lastly, you wake up tomorrow with a big smile on your face with a lot of gratitude for being alive, and for the love you have. Be inspired and be an inspiration! Be blessed and be a blessing! Smile and let others smile with you, always! ^_^

Good night y’all! ❤ ❤ ❤

#Musings

Hopefully I can pull myself together and get back to blogging. I have so much to share, my brain and heart can’t contain it.. Just feels like the whole system isn’t ready yet.

I just missed the times when I regularly share and express freely. Just too much is happening! Great things are happening and have happened in the past days.

Can hardly wait!

Timing is everything it is!

Rainy Days, Fridays and Feelings.

Feeling blah.

I don’t know why.

I cannot fathom the feeling I am feeling or I don’t know what it is I am feeling.

It’s not the feely feeling one kinda feels when there’s a lot of feeling. haha. Yep, I know, right?!

I am confusing. LOL

There’s something missing but I do not know what. Wooo!

I am feeling keen for the coming days and excited for the opportunities. I am working on a new project and there are a lot of work to be done but I do not have the drive to do it all today, not even yesterday.

I am so overwhelmed today and I do not what from. Ha!

It’s been raining most days which makes things worse. Gah!

Rainy days.. and Fridays.

And feelings.

How dare you, feelings!? How dare you! :/

Lil Eddie – Statue

Statue

Lil Eddie

 

When a day is said and done,
In the middle of the night and youre fast asleep, my love.
Stay awake looking at your beauty,
telling myself Im the luckiest man alive.
Cause so many times I was certain you was gonna walk out of my life.
Why you take such a hold of me girl,
When Im still trying to get my act right.

What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what I have to offer.
I shouldve been a [season], guess you could see I had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?

Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when Im lost for words,
Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause I cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (Stuck like a statue)

Ask myself why is you even with me,
After all the shit I put you through,
Why did you make it hard
Its like youre living and i make you??
But baby your love is so warm it makes my shield melt down (down),
And everytime were both at war,
You make me come around.

What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want,
I dont see, what I have to offer for.
I shouldve been a [season],guess you could see I had potential.
Do you know youre my miracle?

Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when Im lost for words,
Everytime i disappoint you,
Its just cause I cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (Stuck like a statue)
And youre so beautiful. (Stuck like a statue)
Dont wanna lose you, never. (Stuck like a statue)

Every single day of my life I thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation,cant solve the equation
Its like you love me more than I love myself.

Im like a statue, stuck staring right at you,
Got me frozen in my tracks.
So amazed how you take me back,
Each and everytime our love colapsed.
Statue, stuck staring right at you,
So when Im lost for words,
everytime i disappoint you ,
Its just cause I cant believe,
That youre so beautiful. (You are the reason,)
Stuck like a statue. (The reason for living,)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (The reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (Youre so beautiful)
And youre so beautiful. (And I want you to feel it)
Stuck like a statue. (Cause so bad Im needing)
Dont wanna lose you, no. (Youre the reason for breathing)
Stuck like a statue. (Youre so beautiful)

When a day is said and done,
And in the middle of the night youre fast asleep, my love

Mikee’s Musings: Hello, 2015!

I know at some point in my life I said “I am not going to love again” coz of the experiences in the past, the people I used to give my love to, the feelings and time I have wasted. That was me being immature and overwhelmed with the pains and emotions, let alone the broken promises and lies. I don’t know why I am saying all this but as the year starts, I feel the best is on it’s way anytime soon, in God’s perfect timing and will. Things are falling into places, I closed the book of 2014 with closure from the past which I greatly need; I can now move on with too much light in my heart and walk forward without that string attached to a very big rock of the past. I’ve outdone my past self! Yay! From the weaknesses to becoming strength and from sadness to greatness! To the people who haven’t moved on still, I really pity you and sorry but I am not sorry. I care less what you mobs say about me that are negative, we all are imperfect and you, just like anyone else commit mistakes. Don’t ask for people to get even, ask yourself if you in the first place have been even. 🙂

Year 2014 has been great and I submit that 2015 will be greater! Hopeful, grateful and keeping the faith of where life will lead this year. Will love myself more and share more, not because I have to but coz I want to. I will no longer chase love and will always know my worth.

I do not have resolutions but I have goals and dreams of the things I have to accomplish and do. More goals and dreams not for myself but for the family and for the future. I will continue to express myself through writing and be an inspiration to others. I won’t just dream but will work on them with more positive attitude and happy and loving heart. Yes, I am ready! Yes, I am claiming

Let the story of 2015 start!

Bring it on Daddy God!