A page from Facebook I stumbled upon today, which is called The Happy Page and found their page amusing and inspiring. This particular photo above reminds me of my past experience..
If only..
If only I didn’t mind what they said about me.. I could have done better, I could’ve done heaps.
If only I didn’t let those words affect me, I could’ve created something different.
If only I lived in that moment, I could’ve been happier even if the relationship was failing.
If only I remained true to myself and do what I love to do instead of becoming someone else I was not just to please others and make them happy, I could’ve been happier.
If only I could’ve pushed myself more and believed in myself that I can do better, I could’ve been better.
Ah! That’s a lot of bullcrap there actually. LOL
I know, as much as I want to do things, I can’t. Coz it’s all in the past, and these cannot be undone. It’s all there. It already happened.. and for some that didn’t happen, I will let it happen!
I will try to live for the moment and not fret or worry about things as much as I did..
I will try and will do my best not to let things affect me that much.. maybe at some point but I won’t linger on it for long. I have realised that I wasted too much time on worrying and I missed a lot of things that I could have done instead of worrying. I was too conscious and selfless that it came to the point where there was nothing left for me. Too busy to take care of others’ needs and forgetting that I have to keep something for myself, too.
I have my share of flaws, imperfections and mistakes, too. I am human, and I make some mistakes but that doesn’t mean I am a bad person. That doesn’t mean my life stops there. That doesn’t mean I care less neither it makes me less human.
So yeah, anyway.. I still have a lot to learn and a lot of things to go through, I still strive every single day to be the person God wants me to be.
I won’t let people’s words get in to me.. (I hope) and will leave things be. I am loving myself and now I have got more than enough love that I am ready to share once again (actually I am already sharing it. Teehee)
Whatever you say behind my back or in front of me, so be it. Your words don’t define me, it defines you.
Until then my friends, I have had enough for today. Hehehe
Happiness is!
Lovely first day of SPRING yahl! ♥