Washing the germs with water. Wonder where they went? Heaven or hell?
Ah! That time of the day when I am having 70,000 thoughts all at once.
The poster I am sharing kinda signifies what I am going through at the moment, and I agree with it. Too many times I have heard those words, overrated, overused, and abused words by many. I have told people those words, too but I was so sure I meant it and I was sincere.
I feel betrayed. I feel like I am stabbed on my back so damn hard that I can feel the throbbing pain of the knife that’s used.. How can I let someone do that to me? Why the hell did I allow someone to do that to me when what I only wanted and needed was someone to give my love to..
How can one do that? What have I done to deserve all these?
Gee bloody wish! Where the hell did that come from? Teehee :3
Feeling really weird today.. Weird in the sense that I am not sure what to feel at the moment. Discombobulated? Anxious? Frightened? Scared? Unsure? I don’t know. It seems to me that as much as I wanted to be loved, there’s this fear that lurks on me and tells me not to. I am so afraid to be hurt again. Although I am saying I will take one day at time, but negativity just pulls it down.. I am really freaking out in a way.
Oh gosh! I am grateful storm had passed today.. We even had a lovely breeze this arvo after some rain. Felt Mr. Sun’s rays on me, too. A calm after the storm. π
But my own storm is not calm just yet. I still have to get through some things and I am really hopeful I’d overcome these.
Dear God, lead me to Your ways. I seek for Your guidance and help. I am so lost tonight. So unsure and ashamed.